Age 10
Standing at the edge of the empty playground,
she whispered in my ear,
"He says you give him a boner."
I asked her what "a boner" was.
She said I made him "hard."
I asked her what that meant.
Her explanation caused roses to
bloom up the sides of my neck.
Age 13
We stood facing each other,
though I was at least 3 inches taller.
The only thought in my head was
"Please don't let our braces lock."
Age 16
He came all over the backseat of
my mother's car.
I spent 20 minutes at the carwash
trying to erase it.
Age 19
I laid a towel on the floor
and we made a bloody mess of it.
Age 20
Her black curls and
freckled cheeks
tightened my thighs
and made me question
my intentions.
Age 23
I was already bored,
but I was sure it was love.
I'd never known a man
to want it less than I could.
Age 27
I met my match.
Age 28
He asked me what I thought
about the prospect of
a threesome.
I giggled.
Uncomfortably.
Age 29
He asked me what I thought
about the prospect of
swinging.
I cried.
Age 30
We went to a club,
left our clothing and
our inhibitions
in the locker room.
Naked,
we ascended the stairs to
a red velvet wonderland of
curtained beds,
writhing bodies,
and moaning lovers.
Age 31
I checked the box.
"Bi-curious."
I checked the box.
"Bi-sexual."
Age 3__
I sit next to him on the couch,
our laptop screens glowing like two eyes,
showing us whatever version of
the world we seek.
I write a poem about sexual identity.
He researches the election.
My poem could suck.
The guy we didn't want could win.
We'll still have sex.
And that's the beauty of it.
Great synopsis of a sexual awakening and journey! Always best when supported by a partner :)
ReplyDelete~Kazi xxx
Lovely poem... left me wondering about some of the emotions you had during your journey.
ReplyDeleteMollyxxx
Love this! A quick glance into a woman's journey.
ReplyDeleteWhat a lovely way to give us a glimpse into, what I presume, is your sexual journey!
ReplyDeleteRebel xox
PS: Welcome to Wicked Wednesday :)
Love the way you have done this!!!
ReplyDelete~Mia~ xx
OH I love this.. the only difference for me was I broached the swinging thing. Just finding you from wicked wednesday and will definitely be back.
ReplyDeleteThis gave me goosebumps..
ReplyDeleteA beautiful way to express a journey. Light, honest & refreshing. Very much looking forward to reading more of your Wicked Wednesdays!
Pea ~x~
Thank you for all the lovely comments.
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